Sitting here trying to picture and remember the man my husband used to be before Alzheimer's began taking him away. After so many years of decline, he is not the man he once was. Sometimes I think my job is to keep him calm while his brain fades away. Of course my job is also to keep our household running by paying the bills and ordering the groceries and everything else involved in keeping us in our home. I'm feeling sad this morning. It's December 23rd and the presents are wrapped but it doesn't feel like Christmas. He doesn't know what day it is or what time it is. When I see other couples our age still enjoying life and doing things together I feel sad and lonely. I guess I'm just down this morning.
